crimsonrose

I've realized that I haven't really written much of anything since...last December or so. I mean, I never really finished anything anyway before except a few fanfics, but I used to write, I used to have ideas and at least attempt to get them down on paper.

Now, I don't. I don't read much either. I used to read all the time. Fanfics or books. I've noticed that my lack of reading tends to coincide with when I'm in school since I started college. During the summer quarter I read pretty much no fiction, except a few fics by authors I know, but as soon as it ended I picked up a book and read it everyday, and after that I started another.

I don't know what is. I don't find myself with any real desire to start again either...or maybe I should say motivation. I have a desire, but not drive to follow through. I think part of me might have given up, since I could never find a format I liked writing long pieces of fiction in and never seemed to finish anything. Honestly, I think I might be better suited to script writing. I like writing episode like interludes that would stretch out over time, I like to tell the stories of peoples lives along with an overarching situation or mythology. Also, I'm a lot better at creating realistic dialogue than I am at writing about what a place looks like, the little gestures or expressions a person would make, etc, in a way that flows in a novel. It would translate better as instructions to an actor playing the part.

Essays and editorial pieces I can do well, when I find a subject worth the effort, but fiction seems to continue to allude me.